Now looking back.

Now looking back, I wish this sunday would be a normal one. A normal sunday would be with my family and I going to church then coming home and eating something mexican ; like carnitas, pozole, something fatty and good. But we don’t. Everyone gets stressed, irritated, we can’t stand each other. I don’t want to help with my sisters’ kids, I don’t want to answer the phone, I don’t want to get up from my bed. I want to just sit and watch  movies, and sometimes I don’t even want to do that.

In my perfect world, I would writing an essay on some political thing, or I would be out taking pictures because  I would want to impress my photojournalism teacher. My sisters would be going to college, and working, maybe married, maybe single, but tonight we would all go dancing salsa tonight.

But I guess my reality is what keeps me going. I refuse to give in. I can’t afford to do that.  But I guess in my reality today is Sunday and not Monday. When my sister graduated high school she graduated with honors. She didn’t go to her graduation. She didn’t go to her prom,  She didn’t apply to any college. She was told she would never go to college. She graduated high school pregnant.

When my other sister graduated high school, she graduated pregnant.

They both started working after that.

When I graduated high school, I graduated with IB credits. But college is still too expensive.

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